If you would have told me that I would have found someone to open up to about our TTC journey (other than my husband) I would have said you were wrong. If you would have told me that I would have found and entire community full of ladies walking along the same journey as us, I would have never believed it. I never in my life imagined that I could find such a strong support system in my TTC Sisters. Instagram started out for me as a way to share some pictures, but has flourished into something more. It has granted me friendships worldwide, and it’s so crazy because I feel like I have known some of these ladies my entire life! It’s fascinating to me the love, support, laughter, mourning, sorrows, and joys that are shared between us.
At first I said to myself that I wouldn’t get involved. I didn’t want to open up about our struggles and my personal journey with someone I had never met. I didn’t want to get my hopes up that someone out there would understand; I didn’t want to get my hopes up only to be let down. Ever so slowly, I began to see that this group was for real, that the well wishes were genuine, that the prayer chain is strong, and the bond between us is unparalleled. There is something that brings us together in a way that the everyday person wouldn’t understand. To know that there are other women out there who are taking steps in this journey is comforting to me. Some might find that last sentence a little off-putting, but what I mean by that is it’s nice to know I’m not alone. That I am not the only one who prays night and day for a child to be brought into my family. I am not the only one who stresses about finding a way to financially continue on throughout this journey. I am not the only one who gets a little less than pleasant when it’s time for the next round of Clomid, or who gets angry when the pregnant lady beside you does nothing but complain and wish her pregnancy away, or who cries at the sight of newborn clothing in the store thinking ‘Will I ever get to buy this for my child?’ And just when you are having one of those moments, along comes a sweet card to brighten your day, or a care package with a few of your favorite things to let you know that you are being thought of and prayed for – or a note simply letting you know that you are not alone.
This post is for you, TTC Sisters. Each and every one of you has genuinely touched my heart and I am so thankful for all of you. Thank you for letting me know I am not alone in this journey to Baby Bear.