For years I’ve dreamed of being a Mother. There are so many things I envision doing with my child, that I can’t even begin listing them all. These daydreams are oftentimes what keeps me going. For example, last Saturday, I was at the hospital for just under 3 hours for a double MRI. I was in the MRI machine for just under 2 full hours. You want to know what kept me going? Daydreaming of Baby Bear. Thoughts filled my head of nursery decorations, that perfect name that will be picked especially for him or her, the feeling of his or her tiny fingers wrapping around my hand as I hold my child. I cling to my faith with an unshakable confidence, and unbreakable determination. Through my journey, I want others to see God’s work and His faithfulness. Most days I’m motivated to press on, but some days it’s difficult to maintain my “oomph.”
Last weekend my Mom gave me something that she cut out of a magazine, and upon handing it to me said “I believe your faith and determination will be rewarded in God’s timing.” I read over the following and have since placed it in my Bible for safekeeping:
Five Habits of a Determined Woman
1. She gets up each morning and follows through with her commitments, despite how she feels.
Her feet are firmly positioned in the day’s tasks. While quitting may seem like an option, she refuses to become someone others or God can’t count on. Her heart understands that she must be found faithful in small steps to be trusted with big steps. “Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much.” (Luke 16:10 NIV)
2. She approaches the Word of God with reverence.
She opens God’s Word and believes each day He has a personal message for her. She listens to sermons and teachings. Instead of automatically thinking of the friend who needs to hear that message, she knows there’s something there for her. “All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It corrects us when we are wrong and teaches us to do what is right.” (2 Timothy 3:16 NLT)
3. She longs for the grace of refinement rather than the grace of relief.
She doesn’t have a personal agenda to fulfill when she faces refinement. In fact, she longs for the grace of refinement, rather than the grace of relief, because she trusts how God will use this season of growth. She accepts the perspective godly people offer her in difficult situations. And she embraces the process of becoming better through her mistakes. “Get all the advice and instruction you can, so you will be wise the rest of your life.” (Proverbs 19:20 NLT)
4. She chooses to invest in the world with joy.
Though life may turn on her, she chooses not to reciprocate. Instead, she strives to be emotionally generous towards others by investing in them with joy. As a result, when darkness threatens to loom over her she can easily chase it away by giving joy. “A joyful heart is good medicine.” (Proverbs 17:22a ESV)
5. She has a spirit of unbreakable determination.
Though she may feel a little [or a lot] bent some days, she never lets the bending break her perseverance toward the things God has assigned her. In the midst of rejection, she thrives by standing firm on this verse, “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” (Psalm 51:10 NIV)
Though I don’t have all these down quite yet, I’m working on them. And each day I can see progress … in my perseverance, in my hope, and in our Journey to Baby Bear.